A Year Later

It has been over a year since I last posted.  Wowzers that seems like a long time!  If I remember correctly, I think I was battling a little bit of uncertainty & indecision.. What's new? :) I believe it was regarding my decision to stay at the school I had just transferred to that semester.  I slowly was becoming established and balancing all things new and I think I was tired of working so hard at it.  But then, I felt a peace about staying.  And I am so glad I did.  I knew I would look back a year from then and feel a little silly about my current problem.  Isn't that how it always works? We are in the middle of going through something so heart-wrenching we can hardly see what's in front of us. We get tangled in the unknown and the aching hurt.  We feel as though this is the worst it could ever get.  But then, we realize, maybe a little later than we would like.. that the outcome turned out okay.  That all the stress and heaviness wears away, and we're left with an outcome.  Whether it's one that hurts but makes us stronger or one that happily went our way.  In the end, it all works out.  In the end, we look back  and it all makes sense.  It may be a year later, it may be a day or a week.  So I look back a year later, and I am thankful for provision.  And right now, when I have a heavy heart about a matter of the heart, I am comforted that it all works out in the end. I hope I remember that tomorrow.

Not sure = story of my life.

To be honest... I am not sure what this blog will consist of. I can tell you it will contain a lot of fragmented sentences and probably a lot of contradictions. I am at a place in my life where I am unsure of a lot of things. But, I am sure of the sure things.  Those that are true, and noble, and good, and right, and honorable.  So I will think upon those things.. I am not a traveling musician, I am not a new wife or mother. But I am an open book. Ready to dive in. And this, this uncertain time... Is just a mere chapter. Or at least I hope ;)

"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹ Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."